Belated BLOG!

A week before my birthday, I had a suprise party thrown for me. It was held in a very classy restaruant called Nectar in Cherry Creek. Alicia, Mya and Christy did all the planning to make it all possible. I arrived with Alicia and lo and behold! About 25 people were inside Nectar. There were candles burning on every table which was a total plus because I've always been a sucker for restaurants that have candles burning. I guess that comes with being a fire girl. I really enjoyed myself that evening chatting with new and old friends. I saw one womyn I haven't seen in ten years there! Totally awesome to see her again. The birthday cake was something special! It had a huge picture of the mountains in the background and two womyn swimming together in a mountain river. one looking towards the mountain the other looking at the other womyn with a fondness. Cool queer cake! Later was told that the original design was supposed to have them both nude but the business owners didn't feel 'comfortable' designing that. Oh well. They presented it to me and said "We figured a down to earth girl like you should have a nature cake like this" heh! The gifts were splendid! Got lots of candles (gee you can never go wrong with giving a girl candles now can you?) bath stuff, even a small cute water fall which my cats of course liked very much when I bought it home. Felt very LOVED by all!

Thanksgiving came and went. We met my brother Aarons' new girlfriend, Katie. She seems nice. Mom says she's crazy about him and insist they'll probably get married. I think mom is just restless to see both Aaron and I get married and have our own children. I wish she'd relax, we're only in our twenties you know, it isn't as if we're approaching forty! Aaron and I are the only two out of a rather large family to go off to college. You'd think that would be a good thing in my family. Sure they smile about it but you can see behind their eyes that they'd be prouder of us if we got married and had kids. Kinda absurd if you ask me. Then again it really is the typical Mexican values my family upholds. Miss Kai made some comment about how I am not the average Mexican-American daughter to which they should shove those values on. I am after all gay and deaf. I beg to differ. In my family, it matters not. They could care less if I were blind and crippled, they want to see me married and with kids. I keep telling them, all in good time, but I can see the constant worry in my mothers' face and eyes. If you ask me, I think Aaron and I are the smart ones. We're the ones that know a solid education is going to be the way to pave towards a higher paying income and with that we could afford way more for our children then. I don't want to be scraping by or living paycheck to paycheck. I hate doing that now but keep telling myself after college is truly done so many more doors are going to open for me.

When the time is right, I know I'll have a child or two. It'd be nice if I have the partner of my dreams by my side with that but I've learned over time and experience not to get my hopes up or expect that. Single parents may have a harder time raising the children financially and whatnot but there are added bonuses too actually. I wouldn't have to compromise with another on how I want them raised. I really really want to be able to raise them Wiccan and when they're of age and maturity and wish to explore another path, I'll give them the freedom to do so. I also feel rather strongly about wanting to raise them vegetarian until they are old enough to decide on their own if they wish to continue or go another direction. Many of the kind of womyn I attract aren't vegetarian. While that is fine with me, what about later if I choose to nuture that relationship? I see no possible compromise on the vegetarian vs meat issue and the choices we'd make for our kids. It's either one or the other in that area. I know these issues aren't to be pondered for a long long time but I think about them now anyways. It's better to be prepared right? It's better to know in the beginning of a relationship weather or not you can see raising a child with the other. Suppose they want their children to eat meat from the beginning? I just can't compromise there and I'd certainly never cook and serve up some baked animal flesh. The hardest part of my job now is just feeding the kids their lunches which consist of meat. It's not the diapers I gag at but the meat! I have to wear gloves when I wash their dishes too or I'd lose my stomach if I knew I was touching some shredded animal pieces. Now I've watched my dates and my former partner eat meat and that doesn't bother me. They know never to ask me to clean their dishes or cook them anything that has meat. They've always respected me in that area too.

Anyways I'm gonna stop before getting carried away or is it too late? Just some food for thought......vegetarian food for thought! HEH!

Oh and before I forget, Larry and KT came over my apartment and stayed the night after Thanksgiving was done. That was an awesome time to be had. KT was busy watching football of course while Larry and I gabbed away like the queens we are! It almost didn't happen, the visit. I'll leave that to Larry to explain away in his blog as it's kinda hilarious. So Larry get with it! TIme to work on YOUR belated blog now heh! Always nice to know that no matter how much time passes between long time friends, the bond and love are something to be counted on and cherished. Love ya Larry.