Rays of Consciousness

Insight into who I am? Hmm, one of my dearest friends said, "You need to get your t.v. watchin, greenery smokin, feline lovin, tree-huggin, no meat eatin, Goddess-adoring butt out of that bed and get to school! You hear me?!?" Of course I mumble and grumble in protest, mornings aren't my bag.

Monday, August 21, 2006





I never thought I'd see this day. The day when life suddenly seems like it's falling into place and you get this feeling that it's flowing exactly how it's meant to...

Most of you know I left Gally for Califunky. Most of you know I've lived in Oregon, Maryland, DC and Cali....before finally nesting again in Colorado. It's been a long road folks, working towards a Bachelors Degree in Special Education and I can almost feel the halfway mark of completing and acquiring such. I never thought I'd get this far. I can begin to tell you how often I've ran out of patience for the whole ordeal. How tired I was/am from being broke due to college books and all it's extras the classes drain you of. Alas, the end justifies the means - does it not?

In a nutshell, what is new in my life at this point is two huge transitions:

I got hired as the part-time Art teacher where I work. This will be an incredibly fun and growing experience for me to learn how to become familiar and design lesson plans that meet the curriculum and Colorado state standards. I'd like to share one part of the wall I did using the following materials: glue, cardboard, yarn, rope, foil, and paint. You can see those materials integrated together to make the art creations I showed you in the photos above.

Also the second transition is rather a happy one, I have an official girlfriend. It's been three years technically since my last one and it feels so strange to say that sentence really. I'm still having to wake up and ask myself if I'm dreaming or... it feels surreal.

We met believe it or not, on the internet arranged for a date and several more followed afterwards. We'd been dating a while, not yet really declaring it exclusive in the beginning stages so I didn't want to really mention it. I didn't know if she was coming or going to be honest. I've dated several women over the last three years and really had the down time to explore what it is that I was hoping for and allow myself to be open to let them discover if I am what they're seeking to grow with as well. I knew I'd recognize her whenever "she" would walk into my path and actually be part of my day to day experiences... The two of us are taking it slow. We may be girlfriends but I like that she has recently signed a year lease at her new apartment she'll be moving into since it allows us down time to focus on building together instead of calling a U-Haul too soon and falling apart. It seems a rare quality: taking the time to build.

I'll tell you a little bit about her. She's hearing, knows the ABC in sign language and in addition has signed up to take an ASL class starting September 6th going until October 25th. My brother Aaron and his girlfriend Katie, are also taking that same class in the same location. It'll really warm my heart Wednesday nights to know the three of them love me enough to give me the best gift I have received in a long time, the gift of communication.

She graduated from Notre Dame University and works as a Property Accountant in real estate. I'm so amazed and I admire her for getting it done the 'right' way and graduating when she did....though she reassures me that I just simply took the "sceneic route" towards accumulating my own Bachelors and there's nothing wrong with that. I have to agree. Life has taught me so much. Relationships of all kinds have taught and shaped me into the person I am today. I am sooooooooo excited to embark on this new journey, both in my career and love life. Blessed be and thank you Goddess for smiling and shining your rays of light on me.

I'll upload a photo of us later. Can't seem to get it to change to jpeg file and saved yet. Hope you are all happy and in good spirits!

Namaste.